Simply Just Human

I remember his last warm embrace before he walked the other way,

I remember the day he first called home from far far away

I remember the day he told us it would be just a little bit longer

I remember the day the calls slowly stopped and we began to ponder

I remember the day I thought he was gone and each day dragged on

I remember the numbing of my brain and suddenly the pain was gone

but why do I get stuck in the cycle of reliving what I do not want to remember?

Why can I not forget the fear that surrounded my family in his days of deployment

Maybe the answer is simply just that I am human.

I am not meant to be a robot.

I am not meant to be inhumane.

I am not meant to be strong all the time.

I am meant to react to situations in my own way.

I am meant to have strong emotions.

I am meant to be weak

but I have strength in the hurricane of the pain.

I will have strength in my family,

I will have strength in my friends,

I will have strength in my beliefs,

I will have strength in me.

because after all I am simply just human.